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  Thursday, April 28, 2005

Two vast and trunkless legs of stone...



Today, the peerless beFrank posted about the opening of a new hotel in Las Vegas. I read the title of the post, Two vast and trunkless legs of stone, the same title I gave this post, and knew instantly what it was he was referring to. It was poetry.

Until 9th grade, I was a shy, introverted bookworm interested mostly in science fiction and survivalism. I didn't have much in the way of friends. I wasn't much of a person. Then, in 9th grade, I had an English teacher named Wilbur Hanson.

Some people never get a teacher like Mr. Hanson. You poor, deprived souls. There are teachers too young and inexperienced to maintain order in a classroom or present lessons in a way that can be absorbed. There are teachers too old and jaded to think that they can make a difference, too bitter or disillusioned to keep giving their best effort. There are teachers, young, old or otherwise, who are good teachers, but simply follow the course outlines and teach their subject without connecting to the students, without having a major impact on those still-malleable personalities.

And then, there are teachers like Mr. Hanson, a gift from the gods, a teacher who makes learning exciting, who has a passion for his work and for life, who looks into the soul of each of his students, finds whatever flickers of spirit still thrive, even in the Los Angeles Unified School District, and nurtures those tiny sparks into flame.

"The child is the father of the man!"

That is what Mr. Hanson quoted one day. Did he tell us what that meant? No. He asked us what that meant. Made us think about it. Let us share our thoughts. Mr. Hanson knew that there are no teachers, there are only students. And he made us be students. I hope he realized that, while the child is the father of the man, that he, Mr. Hanson, was the father of the child. It was he who taught the child to raise himself to be a man. For that is what he did for me.

Mr. Hanson ignored my rough-hewn exterior, my shirking and shrinking from life, reached in with both hands and dragged me into the world. Showed me that I had things to say, and how to say them. He drew us all out, made us all friends, challenged us to help ourselves and the students next to us.

He taught us Shakespeare. He taught us Greek mythology. He taught us poetry. He taught us to understand symbolism. He taught us to use symbolism. He taught us.

He gave us Ozymandias, king of kings. Let us discover the hubris that power can infect a man with.

Thank you, beFrank, for reminding me of the profound debt that I owe Mr. Hanson and the other great teachers out there. Teachers like Homer, and Shakespeare, and Robert Heinlein.

And thank you, Mr. Hanson, wherever you are.


Ozymandias

I met a traveler from an antique land
Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read,
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed,
And on the pedestal these words appear:
"My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings:
Look upon my works, ye Mighty, and despair!"
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.

-Percy Bysshe Shelley
1792-1822



Blog Tag: Opinion

8 Comments:

At 4/28/2005 4:29 PM, Blogger beFrank said...

Very well said. Being married to a teacher myself I like to think I understand. It's nice to know that even if I don't, other people do.

 
At 4/28/2005 11:11 PM, Blogger Melissa said...

It's amazing to me how differently people perceive reality. Dave, I know that this wasn't the point of your blog, but, I knew an entirely different person in high school than the one you described. Granted, I knew you a year or two after Mr.Hanson got a hold of you, but you could not possibly have changed so much in that short period of time. Perhaps you felt withdrawn and shy, but that's not how you came across.

You were a young man who was willing to take risks. I remember the computer that you were building and how you would write letters to companies asking them to donate parts. That's not something a timid person would do. I also remember that speech class you took. It wasn't even required and over 30 years later I still remember your rehearsing one of your speeches. It was on how to give a urine specimen and you chose that topic. Shy people don't do things like that. Maybe you felt frightened inside, but it didn't show.

I always felt like I was shy and withdrawn and that you were outgoing and adventurous. Once I found your website and learned what a blog is, it didn't surprize me at all that you would have one. It is very much in keeping with your character.

 
At 4/29/2005 12:07 AM, Blogger dkgoodman said...

What I said was true. I've gone through several changes in my life.

In fifth grade my parents divorced, and it had a terrible effect on me, leaving me hesitant and withdrawn. I'd always been pretty confident up until then, but I lost that confidence. It was compounded when we moved, and in 6th grade found myself in a strange city and a strange school. I had trouble reading out loud in class, something that had never been a problem for me.

Then my mother remarried, and we moved again, and I had a stepfather, and I wasn't happy at home. Between ninth and tenth grades, I left home and went to live with my dad. My stepsister, bless her, introduced me to her friends and they took me into their group. Most of them belonged to the Thespian group at Chatsworth High School. (Their "Mr. Hanson" was Mr. Carelli, the drama teacher at CHS. Mare Winningham, Val Kilmer, Kevin Spacey and Stephanie Kramer all attended CHS.)

My sister's friends were funny and outgoing, and I wanted to be like that. Mr. Hanson had given me the tools to re-invent myself, the ability to think about who I was, and who I wanted to be. I left my mom, went to live with my dad, and used that opportunity to become my own parent. By the time you met me, I had changed enough that I could approach a beautiful girl sitting on a school bench by herself and start talking to her. Two years earlier, I would not have been able to do that.

All throughout high school I was re-inventing myself. I guess that's what being a teenager is all about, but the change in home environment, and school environment, and puberty, combined to help me do that.

After high school, the next major change was when I took yoga classes. It shaped my philosophy of life, and made me more comfortable in my skin.

The last major change was when Debbie was born. I asked myself what kind of father I wanted to be, and that's what I became (for the most part).

I'm not sure that "re-invent" is the right term for what I was doing. That's too radical. It was more like re-balancing. Like taking an engine that's running rough, changing the mix and getting it running more smoothly. I've always been me, but the changes I've gone through moved the levers around, making some parts stronger and other parts weaker.

I don't think I could have become outgoing if I'd never been outgoing. All I did was turn the dials and find a way to accentuate the parts I liked and diminish the parts I didn't. I opened myself to change, opened myself to learning.

I remember one of the lessons that you taught me, wittingly or unwittingly. Like a lot of guys, I liked saying things that I thought made me seem cool.

One time, I told you that it was easy to break into the school, and you challenged me on that. So we went to the school, and I popped open the door. It taught me to be careful about what I claimed I could do, because I might have to stand by what I said. To this day, I'm still careful about how I present myself. I don't oversell my abilities. I've learned about managed expectations.

High school was a formative time for me. Working on the school paper, I learned how to write news, how to write quickly and concisely, and how to manage others (I became the news editor and had to manage my reporters). It taught me to do research, to look for the facts, to question the facts and to always check my sources.

It was in high school that I learned computers. I went to the math teacher in charge of the computer, Mrs. Joyce Domike, and asked how I could learn. She didn't know who I was, but she gave me a book and let me come after school to use the computer. (Thank you, Mrs. Domike, wherever you are.)

It's funny. I never took journalism, I just joined the paper and learned on the job. I didn't take a programming class in high school, I just learned from a book and taught myself. I didn't take yoga in school, I just joined the yoga club at CSUN. You learn where you can.

You've done that yourself, making a radical change in careers. It keeps you young, I think.

I still enjoy learning and exploring and re-inventing myself. I wonder what I'll be next?

 
At 4/29/2005 9:39 AM, Blogger Melissa said...

After reading your last sentence, My eyes drifted to the right side of the page where the Quotes of the Day are. It said "When you're through changing, you're through." How fitting. :)

 
At 4/29/2005 11:09 AM, Blogger Melissa said...

Dave, I want to apologize if it felt like I was challenging you. Your comments brought back memories of my husband telling me to "stop being such a lawyer." By this he meant that talking to me could be such hard work because I do have a tendency to challenge and debate people's ideas. (He was just as guilty of this as I was, by the way. Lawyers don't just drive other people crazy, they drive each other crazy, too.)

I'll try to exercise more restraint in the future. But if I forget, please try to understand. I try to keep it suppressed, but every once in awhile (OKAY! A lot of the time) the lawyer in me finds its way to the surface and irritates everyone around me.

 
At 4/29/2005 11:24 AM, Blogger dkgoodman said...

lol. Don't sweat it. I enjoyed it.

I have similar quirks. When somebody tells me something, the journalist in me keeps having me ask, How do you know? Who told you that? Or, Where did you learn that? I'm not doubting them, I'm just figuring out how much faith to give the fact. (Okay, maybe that is doubting them?) But it's something innate in me.

And the programmer in me likes knowing all the details and correcting any error I see. I like to fix things.

I'm pretty irritating when I forget to muzzle these impulses. ;)

 
At 4/29/2005 5:09 PM, Blogger Mary said...

Love this post, Dave.
And the comments, too.
I read and reread your last 2 lines of your first comment and I thought about all the ways I can relate to them. (Then I went and added them in the quotes at my blog so I can KEEP thinking about them. Thanks.)

I was lucky enough to have TWO "Mr. Hanson"s in my school career.
I'm thinking of them both today. :)

 
At 3/17/2006 10:28 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I actually had Mr. Hanson as a teacher, and I travelled to Greece with him and a bunch of students in 1974 or 1975. He was the most influential teacher that I ever had.

 

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